Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Bbbbzzzzzzzttttttt! Attack of the Wasp

The stuff of Dreams:

All I can remember from last night's jump into the past is a buzzing flying insect, which I later apparently recognize as a wasp, tenaciously following me so it can sting and injure me. As I dance around this small-ish room trying to escape it, I'm literally reciting, out loud, the reasons why a wasp is devil spawn.

"It doesn't lose its stinger which means it can sting and sting again, and this one is particularly dangerous."

Despite numerous attempts to vanquish the testy bastard with a rolled up newspaper, it just keeps coming back. Each smack deters it for less than a second before it does a slow-motion rise from the ground -- epic terminator music should really have been used if it were a film -- and flies toward me again. The most palpable emotion I had in the moment is an intense fear and anxiety, and I can still viscerally recall the jump backwards and attempts to stay away from it as it followed me. It never manages to lay a blow on me, but either my alarm went off or my dream magically morphed away from it before there was any real resolution. Good? Bad? Here's something definitive: I really hate bugs.

Sketchy analysis via the Internets:

Surprise! The wasp is representative of some sort of obstacle I have to overcome in my life. It could be something I'm scared of, someone I'm having trouble with, or -- here's the fun part -- something that has been haunting me for a long time that I can't get from. It could also represent feelings of envy or hatred that I have towards a situation in my life. However, my ability to fight back and try to keep it down means I'm (possibly?) capable of fending off/defeating the obstacle that's ahead of me.

My personal take:
Everything is changing right now. Moving, leaving behind my friends and family, going to a city I'm mostly terrified of and not entirely sure of? Those are all fun potential unhappy situations to consider. More likely, though, is the difficulty of growing in a relationship and understanding how to help cultivate it and keep it moving. Growing pains are the BEST!

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